The meaning of Christmas

Well it has been a while since I last took time to write but let me further my free fall with some holiday banter. Christmas has come and gone and minus a few thousand dollars all is back to normal in the world. But I wanted to reflect on the concept of what Christmas is and why it was so much better when I was young. Call it blissful ignorance but when I was a kid I lived for Christmas. What could be better than coming together with those you loved and giving those you care about gifts as tokens of your love…plus getting some for yourself is always great too.

But the older I have gotten it all has lost its spectacular dazzle and is now more of a dread then a joy. Why? I guess I just care too much about how it should be; those who I grew up with and loved so dearly aren’t close anymore…like silhouettes of their former selves ruined by time (or the lack thereof) and their own flaws. Why do we get so caught up in the every day things of life that we fail to remember the true meaning of Christmas…spending time with one another and showing each our love…and it is a principle of how we should live everyday not just once a year.

Still we don’t get it, we run around acting like we care but in truth we are too busy. And how can we say we care when we place so many other things in greater importance than those we love? Such a sad state we all become and thus the things which are symbols of what we really should be are lost to us. I mean it is hard enough to get my immediate family together much less all the others. I guess I just live in a dream world where things like family and spending time together is something all should care about. Sure as we grow each of us will start our own new families and maybe this is all such a drag because I haven’t started my own. I just guess I long for those better days when everyone I cared about was still there. But I don’t fault them as my lack of effort and busy schedule are just as much the real problem.

At least I have found the person I will spend my life with, even with my flaws she loves me and won’t leave me…crazy I know. But maybe I am in the middle of the storm, catching a moment to gain perspective and then heading into my own little world again with new faces and a fresh outlook. Hopefully.