Down the rabbit hole

Life is much like falling down the preverbal rabbit hole as it turns out this, has been a wild and out of control week. I got the server manufacturer to send me a new motherboard (but I had to pay to upgrade to a server class one <_<) and a new DVD burner as it turns out it was defective too. Hopefully it will arrive sometime next week so I can hook everything up and be done with this project until then…blah with it.

I am also trying to get out of debt (paying for college wasn’t easy) and while I started off good this year I have, overall, been failing miserably. I figured out that I could transfer my debt to 0% credit cards and at least save in interest. All was going good with it until I had a mishap where I fat fingered an account # and bam it was rejected. The credit card company took its sweet time in letting me know and thus I missed my due date.

I scheduled the payment like 15 days before the due date and still they won’t work with me. The new 8% rate isn’t bad, it is just the principal that this really wasn’t a late payment (it was a fluke). I then missed another payment due date because to the company changed my date to 7 days earlier then the last statement x_x and given how darn busy I have been here lately I having had time to check my statement…life is so not fair. Anyway there goes another 0% interest card.

I feel like I need to stop having a life for about a year so I can achieve my goal. Seriously stop buying anything, but then what? How do I go on living like that? Maybe I could sell off my stuff. I could sell my guns and while that would be easy to do, I HATE parting with my stuff… I have a nice anime collection but I know absolutely no one who would be interested in buying it…back to hating to sell my stuff.

At least with the anime collection being gone my girlfriend would be happy... I just feel so frustrated at life, the more I try the less I succeed and all the while it just passes me by. I look at people like Paris Hilton who is so darn privileged and does noting to deserve it. When was the last time she had to work for something?

I just want some consistency and stability in my life and for once to have the things I work so hard for to actually start paying off for me. Whatever, there is no point in being upset about things you can’t change.

For now I will continue my freefall down the rabbit hole.